Person never thought in words despite fluent English comprehension and speech. Grew up reacting mindlessly to environment without planning or reflection in language. Felt off through school and university without inner verbal dialogue. Revelation hit that normal people think in words. Spent year training verbal thinking skill. Verbal thinking unlocked emotion description and awareness of absent friends. Gained opinions and feelings absent before. Past self felt mindless, empty, soulless, barely human or conscious. Now perceives prior life as mere environmental reaction without broader thought. Seeks explanation for lifelong verbal thought absence.